A Thousand Hits

Another day another hit

Another vow, and  another slip

Another death, another leech

Another needle broken soaked in bleach

Where did it go, I don't know

This can't be

Happening to me

Before I stummm-ble out the door

Another hit

One more just to be sure

 

 

Everything you did before

Doesn't matter anymore

Guilt and pain you ignored

Never mind the nevermore

Everything you did before

Left me bored, distorted 

And ignored

Everything you did before

Doesn't matter

Anymore

 

By the fire, and candle drip

The tourniquet commands its tight grip

Metal  slides in as my skin rips

My lip goes numb, the plunger pushes in

Eyes wide shut

My heart skips

Will this be it, I am  on a sinking ship

Panic sets in, survival wins

Broken, lost heartsick   Aand pistol whipped

 

Everything you did before

Doesn't matter anymore

Guilt and pain you ignored

Never mind the nevermore

Everything you did before

Left me bored, distorted 

And ignored

Everything you did before

Doesn't matter

Anymore

 

By the light of what I was

traded a fence for a dark  prison

And now I have Nothing Because

I threw away All I was given